I know that thanks in no small part to all of you; friends, family, colleagues, and of course the wonderful people in the clinic, these last few months have been wondrously positive - I enter cycle 4 tomorrow; which will mean I'm a third of the way through the planned programme of therapy, and I am still "well".
But I am increasingly aware of the next major event - my first scan, on the 25th March. What will it show? It's a bit of a shock to realise that, actually, we still have no idea what's going on inside; my last scans were in early February before we began the fightback. Yes, I've all the right side-effect symptoms to indicate something positive is happening, and I know the few attributable aches and pains I had before chemo began are not there any longer, but it's still tough some days "believing".
Yesterday was such a day, with too much introspection - we know my Achilles heal is thinking to much! But then I see the news; whether it's about an individual, a plane, or a nation; and things come back into perspective.
Re your comment on believing, see Mark 11:24 "Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours."
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